“I am glad to say that the people who bullied me are on good terms with me and are now my friends.” - Ethel
I grew up in church, from Cradle Roll to Children's Ministry to Youth Church, which became Youth Ministry in 2015. But my revival story started in April 2016, when I first started going for Saturday CG. That's how my whole life changed.
Before revival happened to me, I would usually go to church, CG, and camps just because my parents wanted me to. I was not a big fan of devotions. Ever since I joined Youth Church, my CG leaders kept asking me how my devotions were coming along and telling me to do them. During that time, I didn't know the importance or significance of devotions. But when I started attending Saturday CG, my revival journey sparked. Through CG lessons, I learned teachings from the Bible I wouldn’t have picked up on my own. I started to hear from God and began to understand Him more. The days after that were so much different from the days before.
I went for the Encounter Camps that year. Most of the time, when I go for camps, I don't hear anything from God. But from that year on, I heard God speak to me and I was amazed! I felt warmth and it was God telling me that He loved me very much. He sacrificed His one and only son so that I could have a relationship with Him, and this really broke me. I cried. I surrendered everything to Him. He told me that I didn’t have to be afraid of what others thought of me and that I was the salt and light of my school. He said I didn't have to worry about how I was going to fulfill His vision, I just had to obey Him and surrender to Him because He promised me that everyone in my school will be saved and have Jesus in their lives. God revealed His plan to me and told me that it is not by might or strength but the power of God that this will come to pass.
Before God spoke to me about my school, I was going through a lot of problems there. Even though other people saw me as happy-go-lucky, always smiling and enjoying talking to people, I was suicidal and really depressed because I was being bullied. This went on for three years. I didn't know what to do. I couldn't turn to God. I just couldn't. I spoke to my school counselor and my CG leaders during that time but that didn't really help. I wanted to end my life so all of it would just go away. But every time I wanted to do it, I heard a voice saying, “Just one more day. You can spare just one more day.”
My breakthrough happened during one of the Discipleship Camps in 2014 or 2015. Joanna was speaking about the Father's love and I felt the tangible feeling of God's love being poured out into me. He said, “You don't have to do this alone. I am with you. I have always been with you. Surrender all of your burdens and worries to me.” I just broke down and cried. Then, I heard God telling me, “Forgive your bullies.” But it was difficult to do that because they’d hurt me so much. I was asking God, “Why did they do this to me? I don’t deserve this.” I couldn't stop crying. Joanna came up to me and said, “Turn to God. Give Him all your worries and fears and just commit to Him.”
When I went back to school, I did forgive my bullies. And I think if I didn't, I wouldn’t be where I am now. I am glad to say that the people who bullied me are on good terms with me and are now my friends.
But even then, I didn’t like where I was. To me, my school was just a place for me to study. Even though my mom was bugging me to pray for it, I was like, “No, someone else can do it.” After I heard that I was the salt and light of my school at that Encounter Camp in 2016, I slowly grew to like it. I stopped hating every single thing about school. Every class, I searched for opportunities to share the gospel with my friends. I even did it during lunch and invited them to YM events.
Now, I am very passionate for God, do my devotions everyday, and give my all to Him. I always remember to commit to Him in everything I do and I'm quite excited to see what He has in store next!
- Ethel Wong